failure...
POSTED AT 07:44 PM

badasspaul

failure, a word that goes trough everybody's mind. yes... i know, failing sucks... its like falling into a bottomless pit, and having no resort whatsoever to come back up. though, we know that there's no coming back up from that bottomless pit, some people always have reasons to live, they psych up their minds to do the unthinkable. while others may have given up on the thought of getting out of that pit, some people just dont know how to give up. they keep on thinking of ways to get out of that pit to oblivion. i know its hard, hard for human beings to think of positive things when they know that they are being eaten alive by their own nightmares. but we shouldnt give up on the hope that sometime in the not so far future, an angel would come down to rescue those who have not given up the fight.

im waiting for that angel right now. i've failed in many things and im not happy about it. but then, something comes into my head and tells me to beat the hell out of those who failed me and show them that i have the guts to do what they think i cant do. yes. but still, inside me, my spine is chilling, just to think that i may have challenge my self to something i cannot do. but nevertheless, i will still try. even if it kills me. come to think of it, my friends are always there to help me up. they would help me prove that i am a better person than what other people think. i can survive this war, for i never feared death, beacause dying means its the end of all your sufferings, its the end of the war your fighting, your body has already reached its limit and you cant do anything about it. the thing i fear the most is failure. i dont consider my self a failure yet. i know i have a lot of room to improve, and when i say a lot, i mean a LOT.

let this piece of shit be an inspiration to all of those who have failed. dont lose hope, remember, theres always a helping hand around to help you stand up from the fall. you just have to look for it carefully in a world filled with shit and evil. i wrote this because i just got a letter telling me that i failed physics class. well fuck the all.im going to prove to them that i can become an alebert einstien. better yet, i can make my own name! i dont want to be like anyone else. i just want to be, me.
Listening to: survivor-destiny's child
Feeling: optimistic

gallery
POSTED AT 09:36 PM

badasspaul

check out mah gallery folks...


Feeling: optimistic

first tagalog entry
POSTED AT 09:43 PM

badasspaul

BENTE KWATRO ORAS
dahil indi natutulog ang balita.

• Capt. Hook dumaan sa Quiapo, pinirata!!!

* Palaisdaan, nasunog!!!

* Tahanang Walang Hagdan, inakyat!!!

* Bakla sumali sa away, napasubo!!!

* Bagong tuli nagyabang, lumaki ang ulo!!!

* Unanong madre, napagkamalang
penguin!!!

* Bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang
paningin!!!

* Iceman nanood ng porno, nag-init!!!

* Tindera ng suka, tinoyo!!!

* Teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng leksyon!!!

* Lolo naakusahang nang-rape, pero sa
korte....biktima ayaw tumayo!!!

* Eroplano nag-crash, lahat ng pasahero
namatay sabi ng mga survivor!!!

* Basurero nagsampa ng kaso, binasura!!!

* Dahil may reklamo, eskwelahan ng mga
bingi nag-noise barrage!!!

* Tubero, nagka-tulo!!!

* Lalaki natagpuang pugot ang ulo, inaalam
pa kung buhay!!!

* Barbero tumestigo sa krimen, ayaw
paniwalaan!!!

* Misis ng photographer, nakunan!!!

* Tindera ng tubig, namatay sa uhaw!!!

* Kaso ng pilay, nilalakad!!!

Listening to: nothin
Watching: nuts entertainment
Feeling: enthralled

QUOTE FOR THE DAY
POSTED AT 06:18 PM

badasspaul

they find it possible because they think its possible.
yeah!



Listening to: 41- dave matthews band
Feeling: thirsty

Cast no shadow
POSTED AT 09:09 PM

badasspaul

here's a thought for every man who tries to understand whats in his hand. he walks along the open road of love and life, surviving if he can.

bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say. chained to all the places he never wished to stay. as they took his soul they stole his pride, as he faced the sun he cast no shadow.

Listening to: champagne supernova
Feeling: weird

pagibig ko sayo
POSTED AT 09:18 PM

badasspaul

“Pag-ibig ko sayo”
paul castellano

Nang ika’y unang masilayan,
Puso ko’y nabigyan ng kalayaan.
Dala ka nga siguro ng tadhana
Puno ng saya sa tuwing ika’y makikita.

Ngunit ika’y may ibang iniibig
Walang lumabas na salita sa aking bibig.
Binalot ng kalungkutan ang aking mundo.
Sa malawak na gubat tila ako munggo.

Kagandahan mo’y likas
Pagibig sayo’y wagas
Iibigin kita hanggan sa wakas
Kahit pa maubos ang aking lakas

Luha’y gusto nang bumaba
Para sayo magpapakumbaba
Lahat ay iiwan para lamang mapahanga
Lahat ay gagawin para sa pagibig ko, ika’y maniwala


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Feeling: weird

you are my wonder wall
POSTED AT 09:20 PM

badasspaul

WONDER WALL
me again

You’re the girl that hit me like thunder.
Bringing life to a man who cannot shine.
You’re something I’ll forever ponder.
Thoughts of you hold sway over time.

You were like heaven,
To a man who lives in hell.
You always get what you’re given.
If you don’t get yours, I won’t get mine as well.

I’ve got a feeling lost inside.
It’s going to take me away and hide.
I’m gonna say what I have to say,
I won’t let anybody get in my way.

All the roads I took were winding.
All the lights that lead me there were blinding.
There are many things I have to say to you.
But I don’t know how, just let me say I love you.

I can’t help but think of you, maybe,
You're gonna be the one that saves me.
And after all,
You’re my wonder wall.



Feeling: indescribable

i just want to show people my new icon.
POSTED AT 09:46 PM

badasspaul

the million dollar question is.... who's that pretty girl in the mirror there? what mirror where? there!!!
Feeling: surprised

sometimes we just have to move on...
POSTED AT 01:31 AM

badasspaul

somethings happen at exactly the right time. when i thought it was the end of the world from me, someone suddenly shows up, and comforts you. someone that made me think that i should stop whining and start moving on. two nights spent with this person may have changed the way i look at my life. she makes me feel complete. thats all i can say. she's a completely different person. im too much of a fool if i let this moment pass. i've let too much time pass by because of one person, this time im moving on. im not going to spend a life time for a person who doesnt even appreciate things i do for her. it maybe hard, but sometimes we just have too. we have all the help we need to move on... just like the one i got. you just have to do a good job of looking around for that person. they'll make you feel complete, they'll make you forget about the past and think about the future. we should waste no time to thank people that have touched our weary hearts, people that helped us get up from the fall we took. time to tell them how special they are, and how grateful we are to have them. thank you monica nicole, for being my helping hand.=D




Listening to: fallin'
Feeling: thankful

say what?-charles barkley
POSTED AT 02:56 PM

badasspaul

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I tell the TRUTH, and there are times when you're not supposed to tell the truth.

Life IS too short to take everything seriously.

NOBODY on the planet can guard me.

You CAN get used to it, we'll be beating you all year.

Play or get OUT.

You can come up with a thousand excuses, but the bottom line is you have to PLAY well.

It was just inside ME, a gift from God."
Reading: traffic safety guide
Listening to: right by your side
Watching: my funny valentine
Feeling: bored

mahal mo ba talaga ako?
POSTED AT 03:07 PM

badasspaul

Isipan ko ay nalilito,
Nag-iisip nang kung anu-ano
Dahil lamang sa isang tanong,
Mahal mo ba talaga ako?

Di ba, isang simpleng tanong lang?
Tanong na gustong-gusto kong ulit ulitin,
Tanong na sinasagot mo nang madalang
At tanong na minsan ay yaw mong sagutin.

Isang araw, tinanong kita ulit,
Mahal mo ba talaga ako?
Sagot mo'y OO, na paulit-ulit
Kaya naman puso'y umaasa, sana'y totoo.

Sinabi mo nga ang aking inaasam,
Mahal mo nga ako at iyon ay totoo
Pero ni minsan di ko naramdaman
Ang pagmamahal na sinasabi mo.

Alam mo naman na mahal kita,
Ginawa ang lahat para lamang sa iyo
Pero parang wala lang ang mga ito
At ako ay balewala lang sa iyo.

Kaya ngayo'y litung-lito,
Isipan ay gulung-gulo
Sa isang tanong lamang sa iyo,
Mahal mo ba talaga ako?


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Reading: tuna festival history
Listening to: quiet poetic
Feeling: productive

POSTED AT 03:18 PM

badasspaul

what is love?
POSTED AT 03:39 PM

badasspaul

BAKIT TAYO NAGMAMAHAL?!
marami kyong mare2alyz d2... juz try to read this
one cuz i guess ung iba mkakarelate dito...

why do we love ba?
so we can have somebody to talk to?
someone who can be there pag gusto natin
gumala?
a person na pwedeng manlibre satin?
taong magbibitbit ng gamit mo?

ALALAY for short!

eh pano kung di ka nya mahal?
would you still love him/her?
would you still continue to care for that
person?

bakit naman hinde?

you didnt love that person para magkaroon ka ng
alalay,
magkaroon ka ng instant meal dahil libre,
taong gagawa ng assignments mo or projects,
or taong mahihila mo if you want to go out...

if thats what you think about love well sorry
ang BABAW mo!

loving a person doesn't need to have a criteria
na dapat maganda o guwapo,
dapat mabait or understanding,
kasi once you fall inlove you take the risk of
accepting dat person
kahit maingay sya matulog, yung hilik ng hilik
kahit matakaw sya o sobrang fat na hindi kayo
kasya pag puno ang jeep!
kahit sobrang moody nya na kulang nalang ay
sapakin mo sa inis!
yung sobrang selosa/seloso na pati barkada
pinagseselosan..
badtrip diba?
and yung napaka-arte OA kung baga!
o kahit ano pang things
that would turn you off...

hirap tlaga magmahal trying to be PERFECT kase
gusto mong magtagal
pero hindi yun ang sagot sa lahat...

ACCEPTING the real person fully

kase if you said na mahal mo sya you dont need
to find answers
kung bakit mo sya mahal...
kase lahat ng tao nagbabago but if you accept
that person
magbago man sya in the middle of your
relationship
hindi ka masasaktan kase you know that darating
din yun..
tsaka tanggap mo sya ng buo...

mahirap gawin pero masarap subukan dahil
wala ng sasaya pa if you let one person feel na
MAHAL NA MAHAL mo sya without asking 4
anything in return...

then you can say wow un pla ang

LOVE!
Feeling: confused

only some dreams come true...
POSTED AT 08:03 PM

badasspaul

sometimes we dream of having someone we
really like, but life isnt like that...
we dont get everything we want, but in
the process, we end up loving someone
better than who we dream of... "i guess
only some dreams come true...i'm happy
my dream of having you came true..." i
love you.=D amdg`18

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Reading: text messages ng babaeng pinakamamahal ko
Listening to: crazy for you
Watching: nba allstar week end
Feeling: ecstatic

walk with me...
POSTED AT 08:12 PM

badasspaul

Walk with me.
Paul Castellano

I can only awe in amazement.
You move me with your majestic smile.
Your style is fabulous yet so decent.
I want you to walk with me through the
aisle.

Walk with me until eternity
Walk with me through all the troubles
I love you with sincerity
Ill walk with you with efforts doubled

You are my life.
Youre the blood that passes through my
veins.
Youre someone Ill cherish for life.
Youre someone Ive worked so hard to gain.

All my life Ive spent looking
Looking for someone Ill end up loving.
I found you somewhere up above,
Welcoming me to a life filled with love.

Thats why I have no regrets at all.
For you Ill stand tall.
To protect till Im down.
Theyll have to go through me to get my
crown.

Youre the crown I protect.
The crown that brings me glory.
The crown Ill risk my life just to respect.
Ill sacrifice everything to be in your
life story.

Thats how much I love you.
Please tell me you love me too.
Stupid things for you Ill do.
Ill do everything; Id even die for you.
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YOUR LOVE
POSTED AT 11:48 PM

badasspaul

you're the one that never lets me sleep
to my mind, down to my soul you touch my lips
you're the one that i can't wait to see
with you here by my side i'm in ecstasy

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

[Chorus:]
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

every time i hear our music play
reminds me of the things that we've been through
in my mind i can't believe it's true
but in my heart the reality is you

i am all alone without you
my days are dark without a glimpse of you
but now that you came into my life
i feel complete
the flowers bloom, my morning shines
and i can see

[Chorus:]
your love is like the sun
that lights up my whole world
i feel the warmth inside
your love is like the river
that flows down through my veins
i feel the chill inside

[img:547671] this is MY maricar de mesa...
Listening to: your love
Feeling: thirsty

ocean avenue
POSTED AT 07:29 PM

badasspaul

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
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Listening to: ocean avenue - yellowcard
Feeling: hyper

snap back to reality fool!
POSTED AT 01:43 AM

badasspaul

i dont know what to say
POSTED AT 02:21 AM

badasspaul

i have no idea i've hurt you in such a simple, unnoticable way... all i wanted to say was there's always that someone that comes in your way thats willing to help you get through your problems... i didnt know that you would look at it in such negative manner...i was thinking positively, hoping that you'd be happy that i'm proud that you came into my life, helping me when i was in need. but then, reality strikes back at me... i should have known that we dont think alike... you may see it this way, while i see it the other way around... it really pisses me of, i shouldnt have opened up that topic. now i'll think about what i say before i say it... better yet, i just wont say anything at all... that makes things a lot easier huh? atleast i dont have to worry about you thinking that im just using you to cover up flaws in my life... please dont take this negatively, i just wanted to clear things up... anyway, things happen for a reason, i know that this incident occured to help us understand how we feel about a certain issue. i hope this would further strengthen our relationship. im really sorry for all the cruel things i've said... im just so pissed off at my self for opening a topic like that... im not the perfect friend you've been dreaming of....but i promise to be here with you all the time.i hope you would understand how i feel. thanks.
Feeling: fucked up!

DONT RUSH THINGS...
POSTED AT 02:50 AM

badasspaul

(copy lang to sa friendster...)
saan pa ba.......
kundi sa mga LOVE life issues...
na tipong imbis na maging seryosong
usapan...
eh nagiging pang-"TELESERYE" pa ang
dating...

don't you know that it's not something
to "LAUGH"
about...
it involves PEOPLE..
people with feelings.....

ang love ay hindi minamadali...
hindi pinipilit..
at lalong hindi kina-career...

IT COMES NATURALLY...


as in magugulat ka na lang isang araw...
magigising na SIYA ang nasa isip mo...
hindi pinilit na isipin ha...
basta NAISIP mo na lang basta...
mapapangiti ka na lang...
at basta na lang gagaan ang pakiramdam
mo...
na tipong kahit mukha ka ng tanga...
eh ok lang sayo...
ngiti ka pa rin...
hindi nababase sa tagal ng pinagsamahan...
hindi rin sa dalas ng pagkikita...
hindi rin sa ilang beses na pagkakausap sa
phone...
lalung-lalo nang hindi sa dalas ng pagte-
text...

may MAGIC kasi yan eh...
magic na hindi naka-cast ng kung sinuman...
MAGIC na matagal na palang nandun...
hindi mo lang namamalayan...

isusugal mo ba yun???...
yung feeling na sobrang wala ka ng
hahanapin
pang iba???...
papabayaan mo bang masira yun???...

ASA PA!!!...

kaya nga eto lang yun eh...
wag na kasi kayong magmadali...

unang-una...

PAANO MO BA NASABING MAHAL MO NA
SIYA???...
dahil ba natutuwa ka sa kanya???...
o kaya naman naaaliw ka???...
naswee-sweetan ka ba ng sobra sa
kanya???...
kinikilig ka ba pag nakikita mo siya???...
at nahi-high kapag naririnig mo na ang
boses
niya???...
eh teka muna...
baka naman infatuated ka lang....
o kaya naman kagaya nga ng sagot mo...
BAKA naaaliw ka lang...
dahil kakaiba siya...
may spark na hindi mo maintindihan...
tsk!!!...
ang saklap nyan!...

pangalawa...

GAANO MO NA BA SIYA KAKILALA???...
madali ba siyang mapikon???...
pano ba siya mabadtrip???...
madali bang mahalata na may topak
siya???...
ano bang suot niya pag nasa bahay
siya???...
shorts ba o pantalon???...
nakasando ba siya o naka-t-shirt lang???...
matagal ba siyang maligo???....
kumakain ba siya ng vegetables???...
tamad ba siya???...
mas gusto ba niyang manood ng tv kaysa
magbasa ng libro???...
nagpe-play station ba siya???...
tatlo ba ang pamangkin niyang lalaki???...
makukulit ba yung mga kamag-anak
niya???...
green ba ang kulay ng gate ng bahay
nila???...
sa village ba siya nakatira???...
may sakayan ba ng jeep na malapit sa
kanila???...
nagsisimba ba siya linggo-linggo???...
kasama ba yung pamilya niya???...
at nagdadasal ba siya bago matulog???...
in short...
alam mo na nga ba???...
ang mga bagay-bagay...
ang mga simpleng bagay tungkol sa kanya...
na nagdedetermine ng sarili niya...
as in kung sino ba talaga SIYA...

pangatlo...
KAYA MO BA SIYANG TANGGAPIN???...
as in TANGGAPIN ng buong-buo...
sa lahat ng trip niya sa buhay...
sa lahat ng katopakan niya...
sa lahat ng pag-iinarte at pag-dadrama niya...
sa lahat ng kasalanang nagawa, ginawa, at
gagawin pa lang niya...
sa lahat ng naiisip niya...
sa lahat ng sasabihin niya...
sa kilos niya...
sa pananamit pa pala niya...
sa pagsasalita...
sa pananaw niya sa buhay...
sa pagtrato niya sa tao...
sa lifestyle niya...
sa uri ng pamilyang meron siya...
sa uri ng kaibigang kasa-kasama niya...
sa style niya pagdating sa love...
sa kasweetan niyang natural...
sa paglalambing niya...
sa tawa niyang pagkalakas-lakas...
sa manners niya...
sa pagmumura niya...
sa bisyo niya kung meron man...
sa mga pang-aasar niya sayo...
sa style niya pagdating sa pagsolve ng
problema.

kaya mag-isip ka muna bago mo sbihing
mahal mo na sya..
dahil bka nga sasabihin mong MAHAL KO
NA pero d mo naman
sya ganun kakilala.

THOUGHT FOR THE NIGHT
POSTED AT 11:31 PM as a favorite post

badasspaul

"Do not work hard... be persistent. When you work hard, you affirm that what you're doing is hard. When you work persistently, you do not look at the obstacles hindering you from your goals but instead you do your best to achieve them."



--working under the sun. now thats being persistent...


awww... the exams are coming! i didnt even notice its already the last week of the fourth quarter... this time im going to be persistent... this quarter is either going to make me or break me... 19 days and highschool life is over, well, i wish... its not over till its over... i just want to pass the fucking exams, i want to pass all the fucking subjects my school has to offer and i want to move on to another fucking school... this is the time where i'll need all the help i can get. thank you to all the people who have contributed so much to my success in highschool. but for one last time, i'll be needing your help... im going to be more then thankful if you guys help me pass... graduation is quickly approaching at break neck speed. and i want my parents to see me up on that stage, everybody looking at me while i take something i'll proudly give to my parents.

this is the beggining of the end of my highschool life. on march 2, i'd be taking the most important series of tests i'll ever have my entire life. it marks my transition from highschool to college. so to all the people out there, wish me success in my studies... God, give me strength to succeed in all my future endeavors... +Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam+

[img:535894]-- looks may be decieving...
Reading: stupid math notebook,which will by the way help me pass the exam
Listening to: believe- yellowcard
Feeling: SCARED SHITLESS