wasted summer days
POSTED AT 02:56 AM

badasspaul

 

summer days... hot days where people go to the beach to find refuge. but me? im stuck. stuck in a place called home of the brave and land of the free. lucky huh? no. hell no! i hate this. im so far away from my friends, basketball, shoes, ps2, my bed, my pillows, my room, all my stuff most of all im 7302 miles, 12 and a half hours of airplane flying away from the person i treasure the most. i've already wasted 20 summer days. thats 20 days with that person. life sucks. completely.

now,she has all these problems and i cant even be there to comfort her. what can text messages do? *sigh* this sucks. im really feel pissed off. i hope she's alright.

Listening to: gusto-magnum opus
Feeling: worried

fast forward?
POSTED AT 01:10 AM

badasspaul

why cant things go the way we want it? why cant things go smoothly? why do we have to go through all these things? so many questions, so little time to find answers. 

i want to go home. but still, i have to wait. why cant i just ride the jeep or take a trike home? you know why? im half way around the world for christs sake. i want to hug the person i cherish the most but i cant. im only human. i cant be in two places at the same time. sucks.

"survival is achieved through adapting to one's surrounding."

i cant live without you...
POSTED AT 05:30 AM

badasspaul

im really sorry. i didnt want you to be a part of this mess i've gotten in. but i think its part of our relationship. i know i hadnt been expresive of what i feel about you. but to tell you the truth, lies put aside, i love you. and id do anything to become the person you've been waiting for the past month. i feel helpless, but the thought of you only makes me stronger, strong enough to go through all these challenges that stand before me. in short. i cant live without you. you are the light at the end of this dark tunnel im in. please keep shining for me. amdg`18

Reading: biology book
Listening to: dreaming of you
Feeling: worried

whew..
POSTED AT 12:39 AM

badasspaul

 

haaay... this sucks. thats all i have to say.

nice...
POSTED AT 02:28 PM

badasspaul

Classy things to say when stressed: "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!" "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!" "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?" "Well this day was a total waste of make-up" "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after." "Do I look like a fucking people person!" "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting" "I started out with nothing and still have most of it left" "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me" "YOU!!... off my planet!!!" "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose" "Practice random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control" "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed" "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?" "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years." "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer." "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed" "Do they ever shut up on your planet?" "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable" ,, "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't gone to sleep yet" "Back off!! You're standing in my aura." "Don't worry. I forgot your name too." "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?" "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor." "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it." "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead." "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality" "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done." "Ambivalent? Well yes and no." "You look like shit. Is that the style now?" "Earth is full. Go home." "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?" "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert." "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth." "You are depriving some village of an idiot." "If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport"
Listening to: im not ok-my chemical romance
Feeling: stressed

POSTED AT 01:32 PM

badasspaul

"kung may poem dun sa kabilang stasyon, ako din meron"

POSTED AT 01:58 PM

badasspaul

i stand alone outside,
trying to pass time with out you.
my fingers numb, and face so cold.
a hug from you would feel so right,
through out the night a hug so tight.
i miss you so, i hope you know...

this shit is driving me insane.
only you can make happy,
i hope i see you in a jiffy.
though im half way around the world.
i hope my heart you will still hold.

words may not be enough to tell
how much i love your pretty face
my love for you i'd bring to hell.
just to prove im here to stay.
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love conquers all...
POSTED AT 02:02 PM

badasspaul

from:
-Hawker Sidd-


Two teenagers goin over 100 mph..
Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No, it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on
yourself? It's bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle crashed into a building because of
break failure. Two people were
on it, but only one survived. The truth was that
halfway down the road, the guy
realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want
to let the girl know. Instead,
he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one
last time, then had her wear
his helmet so that she would live even though it
meant that he would die
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the alak poem
POSTED AT 07:16 AM

badasspaul

Ang Alak...*hic*

Sa isang bote ng alak
Tayo nagsimula
Mga panahong tayo'y walang wala
Pero kahit ganon
Masaya tayo noon
Nagkakasya sa simpleng panahon
Hanggang sa lumipas na nga ang
maraming
taon
May kanya kanya na tayong buhay
ngayon
Pero kahit gan'to
Nagkikita parin tayo
Sa isang bote parin nagsasalo

Nagbago man ang araw
At sa alak ay di na nauuhaw
Basta't kayo mga kaibigan
Ako'y nand'yan

Sari sari istorya
Saan pa tayo pupunta
Ibat-ibang kwento
Ng buhay nyo ng buhay ko
Nawawala naman ang iba
Buhay parin sa alaala
Tuloy parin ang tropa
Sa hirap at ginhawa
Ano bang balita
Meron bang napasama
Sana'y natupad
pangarap natin nung bata
Pero ano pa man
Tayo'y pareho lang
Sa isang bote ng alak
Kaibigan

Wala na ngang mas gaganda pa
Sa ala alang nagdaan
Mga pinagsamahang
May konting kalokohan
Magwawakas man ang iba
At huwag naman sana
Sa isang bote tayo'y
Mag kanya - kanya!

Feeling: frustrated

get yours... now!
POSTED AT 07:32 AM

badasspaul

Feeling: imma genius

i miss you...
POSTED AT 07:59 AM

badasspaul

 

 

i miss monica nicole.

Reading: Sports Illustrated
Listening to: gusto-Magnum Opus
Feeling: gloomy

what am i supposed to do?
POSTED AT 12:41 PM

badasspaul

 

......

i want someone to hold me tight.

i need someone to sweep me off my feet.

i just wish you would be the one, the one to make me yours,

telling me how much you love me.

take me away from my problems.

make me care free.

..but instead all my doubts came true,

the only thing i did'nt want was if this doesnt say enough,

i dont know what i'll do while tears drop.

Feeling: depressed