Entries for May, 2005
May 4th, 2005
im officially back... POSTED AT 01:52 AM hmm... im back.. and it seems like every body is happy to see me. my mom was happy, mang bert was happy, the people at petron was happy, my tita was happy, my baby was happy, my classmates were also happy, the lazo's were happy to see me, the guards at marist were also happy, everyone i have in my phonebook was happy when i told them i was back. hmmm... wow... that felt good. but i could not take the heat in this friggin place. i missed evrything... my baby, my bed, my room, my pillows, my house, the cars, our neighbors, whooo, i missed evrythng and evryone.. one thing i didnt miss was the weather. i guess its really hot here, i got spoiled to all the cold and stuff. we'll something i didnt miss was the compliments people gave me. yesss, i know, i grew fat. that hurt a bit, but it wasnt enough to take my self esteem. i still have three weeks to make up for all the weight i've gained. im going to the gym and play basketball whenever i can... but one thing's for sure, i lost my game, totally. the weather, the people.... welcome
back to the philippines paul... we'll its good to be.(atleast now im a
lot closer to the only girl i loved, more like 10thousand miles
closer...) Reading: dilbert comics-im not anti-management; im anti-idiot. Listening to: baby its you-jojo Feeling: tired do you care?
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May 4th, 2005
BABY its you.... POSTED AT 01:59 AM baby its you- jojo (hope you get this monique.) Can’t somebody explain to me Why everybody’s tryin’ to be Livin’ like a celebrity Doin’ what they see on MTV Ice is cool but I’m lookin’ for more Simple things is what my heart beats for That’s me I don’t ask for much Baby Havin’ you is enough You ain’t got to buy nothin’ It’s not what I want Baby,its you We don’t have to go nowhere It’s not what I want Baby,its you It’s not by what you got, I know you got a lot No matter what you do, you always gettin’ hot It's you... it's you ... Baby, all I want is you, yeah It don’t matter that your car is fly And your rims are spinnin’ on the side And it don’t matter where we go tonight Cause if I'm with you, I'll be alright That’s cool, but I’m lookin for more It’s your love that my heart beats for Cause that’s me You don’t have to spend a dime Baby I just want your time (yeah ... ) You ain’t got to buy nothin’ It’s not what I want Baby, it’s you We don’t have to go nowhere (It’s not what I want) It’s not what I want Baby, it’s you It’s not by what you got, I know you got a lot No matter what you do, you’re always gettin hot It's you ... (it's you) It's you (Baby) Baby all I want is you, yeah (Hey ... ... ... yeah) You ain’t got to buy nothin’ (It’s not what I want) It’s not what I want (oh) Baby, it’s you We don’t have to go nowhere (nowhere) It’s not what I want Baby, it’s you It’s not by what you got, I know you got a lot (hey, yeah) No matter what you do, you’re always gettin’ hot It's you ... (it's you) ... it's you Baby (baby) all I want is you, yeah (Yeah)[img:547672] Feeling: awake |
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May 4th, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY POSTED AT 02:06 AM |
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May 6th, 2005
cool?! POSTED AT 08:49 AM
Do you think love is the strongest force in the universe?! no... i'd have to go with stupidity... followed closely by its cousin, ignorance. morning breath is number three, then you've got selfishness, lust, fear, money, and luck. but love is in the top ten right?! its fourteenth, right after 'foolish optimism'.
-dogbert Reading: im not anti business, im anti idiot Feeling: satisfied |
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May 6th, 2005
POSTED AT 08:58 AM as a favorite post just plain stupid...
have you noticed? People are getting stupider every day... The complexity of the world is increasing geometrically. But our ability to learn is at the same slow trickle it has always been... Information is gushing toward our brain like a fire hose aimed at a tea cup. we're at a crossroad in history... Even the smartest among us has become "FUNCTIONALLY STUPID." i dont want your opinions!!! Feeling: STUPID |
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May 7th, 2005
?! POSTED AT 09:41 PM haay... isang linggo na akng nsa pilipinas. ang init tlga. at dhil mejo,,, mejo lng, badtrip ako ngyon, wla ako sa mood mag english. kakasawa din. isang buwan akng wlang nkausap ng tagalog dun noh, tatay ko lang. ayan... haaay.... isang linggo na ang nasayang, sasayangin pa ba ang dalawang linggong nalalabi?! ha?! sana hindi na. dalawang linggo nalang kasi, tapos pasukan na namin, maaga ba? e k***l ung skwelahan na napasukan ko eh. epal kasi mga taga dun eh, andaming alam! may pa tri sem tri sem png nlalaman. epal!
kakatapos nga lang pala ng birthday ng kaisa isang babaeng
nkakapagpaganda sa takbo ng buhay ko. pero hindi parin ganun eh. mejo
nastuck na ata sa pggng "mejo malungkot" ang buhay ko. ikaw ba nmang
mawala ng isang buwan at limang araw eh. tapos, isang linggo na
nkakaraan eh hndi mo parin nkakasama ng maayos ung babaeng mahal mo,
sinong di malulungkot nun?! kailangan ko bumawi sa nasayang na oras
dude! napakasaya noh?!! sbra sbra nman ang problema! hindi pa kami
ngayon mkapagkita... d daw sya pwede eh. kya un. ginagawa ko na nga
lahat eh, kahit 30 seconds lng na mkita ko xa, msaya na ako. oo,
mgddrive ako ng 5 mins pra mkta xa ng 30 seconds. tanga?! hinde, mahal
ko lang talaga. hmmm, pag gabi nga lng pla nangyayari un. pagumaga at
gusto ko xa makita, wla, hndi pwede. haha. saya noh! tpos, hndi dn dw
xa pwede mg mcdo, khit na ttwid lng sha. ok na lang. wla nman akng
mggwa eh. tska mejo mahirap ung plaging ako nlng ang gumagawa ng
paraan. hiling ko nlng mksma ko sha sa dalwang linggong nalalabi.
un lang... pwede na ako mamatay pagkatapos nun. pano kng mamamatay
na nga pala ako nun? e di wla na... deads! haha.
ayan... tama na ang pagddrama. wla itong patutunguhan... mga lasalista
jan, kita kits! nga pala, mainit tlga dito... d k alam kng bkt.
nalulusaw nga ung chocolate ko kpag linalabas ko ng ref eh. hahaha.
fota. mainit! haha! pati tubig ayaw lumamig. Reading: bakit baliktad magbasa ang mga pilipino Listening to: for you i will- monica Watching: wala! Feeling: indescribable |
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May 7th, 2005
SHINE..? POSTED AT 10:27 PM >this is from roy's xanga page.< someone said to me..."hey, you're shine is growing dim.." i said to that person.."because i was trying to shine so hard, for someone who's glance was never mine..." Reading: roy the toy's xanga page |
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May 10th, 2005
no...nobody... POSTED AT 09:36 PM
nobody is perfect. we are nobody. Listening to: nina live Feeling: numb |
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May 11th, 2005
chitty! chitty! bang! bang! POSTED AT 11:54 PM as a favorite post
if i dont get to heaven What does your love mean to me?
longer than poets will rhyme,
like a river flows and a flower grows, my love for you will never fade. Listening to: coloured kisses- nina Watching: badboys 2 |
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May 13th, 2005
tsageng! POSTED AT 11:21 PM Listening to: move bitch! Feeling: quixotic??!! the hell?! |
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May 13th, 2005
another unproductive day. POSTED AT 11:37 PM It all started with a phonecall at around 10 am. Then it ended at around 2pm doing nothing. Great day huh?! Yeah right! eat shit! i did nothing today... thanks to the help of my useless friends who asked me to go to rancho to watch a ball game. unfortunately, their would be opponents chickened out and didnt show up. what kind of shit eating coward would chicken out of a ball game? damn, if that was my team, i'd show up even if we're up against the miami heat, or the san antonio spurs. yeah right.
my girlfriend, monica nicole... found a new way to switch moods in 30 secs. i dont know how she did it but she did... im still mixed up though... Listening to: baller baby- chingy Feeling: weird |
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May 13th, 2005
May 19th, 2005
jesus christ... animo lasalle POSTED AT 08:23 PM Reading: dlsu handbook-a christian achiever for god ang country Listening to: pusong bato- noel milan Feeling: indescribable |
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May 19th, 2005
damn it!!! POSTED AT 08:30 PM Christian Achiever... For God and Country.
YUCK! yan ang tinuturo nila samin nung orientation.. ayoko naaaaaaaaaaa! this sucks... mejo nasasanay na ako pero ayoko talaga. pati mga cheer tinuro! jeez. lasallian na nga ako. dapat ko na ata mahalin ang paaralan ko?!! im CONFUSED! Feeling: confused |
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May 22nd, 2005
you're the one... POSTED AT 04:39 PM A smart girl can open up my mind....
A pretty girl can open up my eyes...
But only a sweet girl can open up my heart...
I'm lucky to have found a person who has all these.
Listening to: Sweet thing-nina Feeling: impressed |
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May 22nd, 2005
Are you really going to leave me? POSTED AT 05:13 PM You're leaving for the states some time this year, and i cant do a damn thing about it. The bad thing is, you're not going on vacation... You're staying there... probably for the rest of your life. There's a possibility that you forget about me, who i am, what i am to you, what we've had, the moments we shared together. I may not see you for the rest of my life if you leave for the states, thats what i fear the most. You've been a part of my life, no... you are my life. And losing you is like taking the only thing that matters to me. You may not feel the pain of separation, because you're living there, with your family... who cares about me anyway right?! You're taking this S.A.T. thing on the 4th of June... everyone bids you goodluck, im here, alone, hoping you dont pass. mean? not really... i just dont want to lose you. If you could see me now, tears falling from my eyes, crying, feeling helpless, nobody knows how i feel about it. it hurts. its devastating. tears fall every night when i think about it. you may not believe me, you may think im just "ma-drama." but you're wrong, you're dead wrong... it really happens... all i want is for you to be mine forever, yeah, im selfish, i know that! but i love you? what can i do?! Im trying to be brave... I try not to think about it. I show people im strong and I can do anything, but deep inside, the other part of me just sits along a dark corridor, waiting for you to help me up. I am brave, im trying to be... but as Im being brave, I feel so weak at the same time. I've never felt so weak! All I could do is breakdown, cry, and wish that I was never this brave. But im doing this for you. I love you too much. This is life.... I have to accept the challenges... Life is just too unglamorous, we dream of a perfect one yet we get the opposite. Ironic I must say... I cant afford to lose you. I love you. Thats what matter's. You make my life not so misserable. You take away the sadness. You make my life worth living. You make me... complete. So what happens if you do leave? I dont know... lets just pray I dont die because of depression. I hope this doesnt happen. I hope you wont leave the country, your school, your friends, and I hope you dont leave me.='( Listening to: Stay(with me) - nina Feeling: scared |
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May 24th, 2005
theres nothing i can say... POSTED AT 12:15 AM |
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May 24th, 2005
first two days... POSTED AT 11:10 PM Feeling: tired |
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May 24th, 2005
united states of america, fuck you! POSTED AT 11:59 PM fuck that ridiculously rich and overwhelmingly powerful country. you have my brother in custody already, now you're taking my girlfriend? fuck you! you gang banging mother fucker! you're an asshole till the end! stop taking my loved ones away... i hate this! this is a fight wherein im on the losing end! i cant do anything! this sucks... thats all i can say. i pray to God that the s.a.t test be sooooooooooo damn hard, not even einstien can pass the friggin exam! please! help her get all the wrong answers... please!!! IT IS INEVITABLE... yeah, the famous line from agent smith in the matrix. it is inevitable, because i cant do anything about you leaving the country. if i could ask for one thing, its either going to be you staying here and we'd live a happy life, or you going there, while i wait for death to call me into oblivion. those are the choices, which one would you choose?! Listening to: amazing grace- fuck you version Feeling: inexplicably angry |
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May 26th, 2005
you know what sucks? POSTED AT 11:16 PM Feeling: pissed |
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