i did it! it was me
POSTED AT 06:18 AM

badasspaul

Goodevening sir paul, err i mean goodmorning! its 5.07 pm here so that means its 4.07am in the philippines. I HACKED INTO YOUR TABULAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!mwahahahahahaha...

 

 

 

 

i knew that this would be better than writing a boring old email, so here i am...

 

 

super boring dito... i watch tv all the time. we can only go out on weekends since may work si mommy,, kaya ganun. SOBRANG LAMIG. di pa nga winter e. badtrip na ako.haha...

 

 

so far, i've been walking to everywhere and ok lang naman ang baltimore...twing nakakakita ako ng puno naiisip ko, maryland, blairwitch project. bka mapatay ako dito.hehehe....

 

 

super miss ko na yung pilipinas..pero at least finally naka punta na ako sa american eagle outfitters dahil yun lang naman talaga ang pakay ko dito. tapos nakakatawa..yung binili ko pa na matagal ko nang gustong bilihin..pag uwi ko tapos tinignan ko yung tag, MADE IN THE PHILIPPINES. yun lang. hahah..wala na akong masabi. tsk tsk...

 

so anyway. i get the feeling that youre not maxing out your potential... study hard baby boy! you can do it. i know you can.

 

 

save mo yung number na ginamit ko to text you...

 

miss you! ingat ka parati. mag mail ka din if you can. or try to hack my blog. haha. wag na mag isip ka nang iba na taktika. hahaha..

 

 

sana na surprise ka. para masaya. =) enjoy life! miss ya babe. loveyou always=) take care!mmmmmmmmwah!

 

 

 

 

(i still have to put my name? who else could have done this?haha=)---->monique

Reading: Prey
Listening to: sound of settling.
Watching: LOTS of cable tv
Feeling: silly

ay. ang aga...
POSTED AT 07:53 PM

badasspaul

hmmm... we got dismissed pretty early... haha. no orgmgnt and databas for us. goodthing. i got home early. yes,i am here in marikina... in my own bed. oh, i love it... so soft and not cramped up! hahaha!

i dont know why i feel so tired. maybe because of the dancing shit? la cumbia. what a silly name for a dance. and the dance itself was awful! it had a really fast tempo and...oohhh, was i shitty. haha. still couldnt dance. theres a difference between an athlete and a dancer okay...

so, while i was walking to 10Q along taft, camille and trixia was in red ribbon, right beside 10Q. they were calling me daw. hell, how would i hear them? they're inside and im outside, with all the noise. so when i was walking back, i heard someone shouting, it was tani. hahaha. calling me. deadma daw ako. hahaha. anyway... thats my day, i feel tired. maybe ill play ball tomorrow before going back to school. haaaaaaaaaaay. what a life.

i think i failed yet another math test. problem solving sucks man! downright nasty. arghh! i think i have to take the doctoral course in algtrig. damn it!

anyway... chillax. and monique... you never cease to surprise me. 

wait. damn it. i have still to start my family tree for socio, which i have to pass on monday. then i also have to start doing our research paper. damn it. i havent started. that project was given a month or two ago... damn! i hate it. cramming! goodthing i was trained well in this aspect of life in marist.anyway. i have to start doing my work. before its too late. damn. still cant believe i havent done anything yet. i also have a homework in orgmgnt. fuuuuuuuck! this sucks man. this sucks. lots of school work. so little time.  

Listening to: what if
Feeling: tired

words of inspiration.
POSTED AT 10:05 PM

badasspaul

"find daylight where others see nothing."

 

"the best practice like they are the worst."

 

"you are part of the team when the team is part of you."

 

fall down seven times. STAND UP EIGHT. 

Watching: dwyane wade commercials
Feeling: impressed

what?
POSTED AT 09:45 AM

badasspaul

    so... its tuesday morning. class starts at 11 am. haaaaaaaaaaay. what a day i had yesterday. i was too lazy for anything. after classes, just went out for about 30 minutes to hang out with marc, abby,tani and dianne.. then, i went to the condominuim and slept till 8pm. wow... lazy boy. and i didnt help tani with the orgmgnt group work. anchor muna ako. hehe.

    so,today is a new day. i better get my self in the mood or else im going to waste this day. haaaaaaay. i have my new haircut na nga pala. great. haha. short hair na ulit. got my lsal jersey na nga pala. haha.

    hindi traffic along taft. here i am observing taft from the 15th floor. great. buti pa sila, they just go along with their life... good job. haaaay.

    good job nga pala sa mga orgmgnt group mates ko. hapit time. you can do it marc and tani. hahaha! lakas niyo. oh yeah.  goodluck. and goodjob.

   gotta go. chillax.

Listening to: tatlong araw

blah. and thats what you think.
POSTED AT 09:40 AM

badasspaul

so. went back to the dorm for no reason. jeeez. wala palang lab, sayang ang pagiging excited ni abby. shet. it sucks... so here i am again, typing my ass off. no classes for me today. i just have to go to william shaw theater to cheer reena on during u-break. great. goodluck reena.

so, there's been stuff bothering me... seems like im ok with all the laughing and foolishness i do. pwede... pwede... but. (there's always been a but.) im terribly missing two people. one whom i cant see...the other one, i can stare as long as i want. eh bakit stare lang? why not talk? why not... jeeez. this sucks. i dont know, it seems that i've been that old not so sensitive to others feelings guy again. who cares anyway... pero i think theres been a misunderstanding here. as always. imagine me, not doing anything. who's not going to be pissed off? jesus christ. anyway. im just too lazy and too fucking pissed to do anything. last week was pretty much ok. this week is all so shitty.

 lsal opening later. wala namang games. argh. i want to play. i want to excel in the lsal. i cant excel in academics, so i'll just try my luck in sports. whoooooo... this sucks. cant seem to excel in anything i try to do.  bad.

so... i miss monique, so much. argh. and i cant get to text her. why? damn it, my mom left everything to me. she gave me my atm card, then the rest is up to me. she'll just deposit 1000 a week for my baon. the rest of my gastos, oh yeah. imma be paying. im just a kid! i dont earn money yet. i have to buy stuff and things. jeeeez. pati load ko ako na bibili?well that stinks!

i miss you also.. you should know who you are. if ever you'd be able to read this. im sorry for not helping out.

ok, its wednesday, pretty much a waste of time. haaaaaaaaaaaaay. really excited for tuesdays game against the yfc team. kinakabahan? hell yeah.  haha. i have a feeling sOmEoNe isnt going to watch the game. good or bad?

pretty much a long one. i'll keep you updated. chillax. 

 

10:42am... RANDOM THOUGHTS!!!

i suddenly had the urge to buy new shoes. hmmm... hmmm.... new shoes. i want the new nike free... oh i love them,  and the nike airforce one na low cut! isa ka pa! and my dream shoes,,, air jordan XX. damnit! its on sale!!! from 8000php to 6000php! i  have to get those! and the new huarache 2k5. oh my god! and the new dwyane wade shoes!!! i want them! i want shoes... i love shoes. give me shoeeeeeeees!!!! but theres a big problem....

 

MONEY.

darn! 

Listening to: its all good.
Watching: robot body builder.
Feeling: sleepy

what a boring night.
POSTED AT 09:45 PM

badasspaul

okay naman sana. mejo... tired lang siguro. haaaaaaaaaaaaay. damn it.

so... lsal opening. ok naman, mickey deles was there. what a cutie. haha. pero wala siya sa kalahati niya. haaaaaaaay. so, mejo ok na ako maglaro. kahit sino ka pang manonood sakin. imma show you what i've got. sabi nga ni renren ritualo, "kapag may laro, hayaan mo lang... be loose. wag mo ipressure sarili mo. parang kumakain ka lang. natutulog? basta, wag mo ipressure ang sarili mo. play your game. enjoy." hahaha. kapag ako nag enjoy ng todo, expect something like 20-30 pts from me. hahaha. wag lang kill joy mga kakampi. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

still not good enough. misunderstandings everywhere. god damn it. how i miss you. i need strenght. wala na akong gana for anything this week. as in. haaaaaaaaaaaaay. i hope things would be better. i hope. i wish. i pray for. i dream of... haaaaaaaaaaaay. dreaming of you.....

"a decade later... stronger than ever." 

Listening to: still here waiting

la la la la cumbia.
POSTED AT 10:30 AM

badasspaul

woke up too damn early for p.e. went to school to damn early only to mind myself being awed to amazement by the impossible steps of la cumbia. damn it. didnt get to practice. wala sa mood.  got a 2.5 during the practical, good enough. thanks to emman. again! yeah boy. you da man. mali lahat ng steps pero nka 2.5 parin. goodness. haha. anyway...

so towards the end of the period, camille kept tickling me. sinabi nang wala akong kiliti eh. makulit. at the fountain, camille was behind me, and i stalled them on purpose. when i turned around, someone said, "e bakit kapag ako, wala kang pakielam?" damn it. di na ako nka react. i dont know if that was for me or for camille. blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaank.

mindless self indulgence.

just finished printing my english essay. damn it. i lost all of my drafts. that means im going to fail the essay. shit. that sucks... so i fail english for a change. but still... no. i dont want to fail english... no. not that. not in this life time.

dancing... what a rude activity. its not that i dont like, its fun... but its really hard... darn. anyway. i will still try to dance. haha.

i almost forgot. my calves hurt. maybe because of kicking the ball too hard yesterday. it was fun though. haha. soccer. hahaha. i want to be in the manchester united team... dream on. haha. i scored a goal nga pala... begginers luck. maybe ill practice soccer for a change... 

i gotta go to my math class now... toodles...

 

Listening to: mindless self indulgence
Feeling: tired

blank
POSTED AT 09:16 PM

badasspaul

missing a special someone.

life doesnt seem complete without her.

how i wish she could see what's inside me.

looking at her eyes... is like looking through the eyes of an angel.

if only she knew.

here i am now, staring blankly into oblivion.

we used to watch the world pass us by...

but now, im alone.

if only YOU knew how special you are.

if only YOU know i cant live life without YOU.

if only i can tell you... you are, and will always be, my special someone.

 

 

 

-baliw ka. you know who you are. 

you'll be safe here!!!
POSTED AT 01:05 AM

badasspaul

whatta night! kabooom! solid. saya. hehe. my feet hurts so much though. haha. tell ya the story tomorrow. ill just edit this post. see ya... so sleepy aredy. whatta night.

november 13,2005...continuation...

so, 2 days after the engnight. still have the rivermaya hang over. haha. it started out like this... akafella's were first on the list, then mojofly, then sugarfree, then hale, and then... rivermaya. the whole place was rocking. haha. i love it. yeah... i was soooooooo tired after the damn concert. haha.

then i woke up early saturday morning... we were going to tondo, again! damn... that place.... stinks. haha. had fun though... i was sleepy the whole day. when we were in the house of our foster family, i just kept on sleeping on abby's lap. (may silbi din pala si abby eh. haha. joke.) then, when we were in the barangay hall, calysta  and i played ketchup, and to our dismay, we were both beat down, well, i guess she won. i still have bloodclots on my hand. haha. i was soooooooo tired yesterday, when i got home, i fell on my bed and dozed off to sleep. yeahhhh...

its sunday, another lazzzy sunday... what am i gonna do? haha. 

sa uulitin..
POSTED AT 01:24 AM

badasspaul

"Sa uulitin muli
makapiling ka sa bawat sandali
hindi maitatanggi langit
sayong mga mata at mga labi
sana noon pa naranasan
Hinding-hindi ipagpapalit
kailan man"

1:06 am, dad is probably going to wake me up at aroung 4.45... damn it. slowly starting to fall in love with lougee's(vocalist ng mojofly)voice. grabe. she has this incredible voice, and a beautiful face and body... wow... lougee... lougee!!! damn it. haha. in my dreams... hahaha. anyway.. this was avery unproductive day. slept all day. good.  i am badly in need of rest. havent played basketball for quite sometime. will i be ready  for tuesday? i hope so... damn it... lougee... ganda ng boses... malaki na parang lalaki  pero hindi. kakaiba. unique. galing pa kumanta. sexy pa. damn it. dream girl? naaah. hahaha. goodluck to me this week. this is another bad start for me. not sleeping early and all that.. lougee... lougee... lougee...

monday, 11/14/05 -too damn lazy to make a new entry...

kapag walang magawa si pablo... 

1.Ever liked someone younger than you? how
young?
>> yeah. ung third year na sa st.scho ngayon. hanggang tingin lang naman.

2.Someone older?
>> Amanda Griffin? Angel Rivero? Lougee.....

3.Ever been drunk?
>> oh yeah. di na ako nkauwi. haha.

4.Do you smoke?
>> no...

5.Been in love?
>> madly in love...

6.Loved someone whom you knew you couldn't
have?
>> yes. and its a magical feeling.

7.Got in a car accident?
>> not yet. and im not looking for one.

8.Had your heart broken?
>> maybe... maybe...

9.Last time you cried?
>> october 19-24, 2005.. haha. tandang tanda ko pa noh. 5 day marathon ng iyakan.

10.Last time you laughed?
>> kanikanina lang...

11.What age do you seek?
>> the hell???

12.Describe your dream wedding. ::
>> gusto ko, skydiving while getting married. pati si father tatalon. haha.

13.Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
>> monster... si alex. haha.

14.If you could dye your hair with one color, what
would it be?
>> brown. inggit ako kay trixia.

16.Would you rather give or receive?
>> give.

17.Where and how many homes have you lived
in?
>> marami rami na..isa. home is where the heart is diba? so hindi home dito sa condo. haha.

18. Do you play any musical instruments?
>> how i wished. kahon lang, sablay pa minsan.

19.One or two pillows?
>> two..

20. Do you get along with your parents?
>> weather weather lang yan..

21.Do you get along wid ur sibling(s)?
>> seldom. haha. joke. ok naman... alaskador kasi ako eh.

22.Whats your favorite color(s)
>> blue, orange, pink,black,white

23.Do you sing?
>> minsan. kapag lss.

24.What are your favorite dishes?
>> japanese foo'.. anything with beef, wag lang ung may ampalaya.

25.Who was your first crush?
>> alicia silverstone

26.Are you the romantic type?
>> no. ithink...

27.Are you in love right now?
>> im not telling.

29.What are you going to do after this?

>> papasok for sociology. 11:40 class ko dun eh. 11:25 na.

KAPAG WALA NA TALAGANG MAGAWA. 

1.Color of most clothes you own
* blue and white

2.Number of pillows you sleep with?
* 2

3.What place are you in right now?
* infront of my laptop

4.What were you doing 12AM last night?
* playing online.

5.How old will u b in 10 years?
* 27

6.What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?
* basketball parin ba? IT professional na sana.

7.Do you have braces?
* nah...

8. R you paranoid?
* oooh..mejo?

9.Describe your wallet?
* beige na girbaud

10.your alarm clock?
* cellphone

11.Your hair?
* one sided ala champ, minsan kapag feel ko.. Joseph Yeo. (ganyan tlga kapag bagong gupit.)

12.Tooth brush?
* ewan. green na oral b ata...

13.What color r your eyes?
* brown

14.First enemy?
* cant remember. satan?

15.First play/musical/performance?
* way back grade school..

16.Last movie seen in cinema?
* uhm... ang super boring na lord of war.

17.Last person you yelled at?
* miguelito. favorite ko sigawan yan.

18.Last crush?
* kg.

19.Last shoes worn?
* adidas sneaks ko.

20.Last ice cream eaten?
* hmmm... sundae sa go nuts donuts.

21.Last thing written by hand?
* algtrig notes.

22.Last time you want to die?
* almost a month ago.

23. When was the last time went out @
night?-
* uhm, saturday night? nakita ko si papa james yap at si kris aquino.

24. What were u doing last night? -
* nag palamig sa kwarto ko.

25. Why do you like yourself?
* cool eh.

26. What r your plans for tomorrow?
* loosen up at wag ma pressure para sa game.

27.When was the last time you got angry?
* tagal naaaaa.

28. What was the last song you heard?
* tumatakbo-mojofly... aaaaaaaay! si lougee kumanta nun!!!

29. When was the last time you entered a
club?
* cant remember.. nung proj sa filipino.

30. what is it about the opposite sex
(physically) that gets you?
* smile,

31. what are three things that you cannot
live without everyday?
* cellphone,damit,computer

32. current music that's playing?
* para sayo-pne

33. can you list three things that are
taking up space on your table
* laptop, printer, books... lots of books.

34. What do u want 2 do now?
* chumillax.

35. what's the color of ur room?
* sa bahay. green.

36. what's the first thing you ate this morning?
* sizzling beef with mushroom.

37.what shampoo do you use?
* h&s

38. how many people do you have on your friends'
list
* ha? 400+

39. what's that one song you never get over?
* kung wala ka.

40.fave day of the week? why?
* wala. my life sucks

41. did you do anything stupid in the past 24
hours?
* i always do something stupid.

42. did anything useful in d past hour?
* uhm... wala?

43.what's your MSN/Yahoo! id right now?
* lick_and_dip15------ym

44. if you could change your name,what would it b?
* Latrell spencer. ahaha

45. play any musical instruments?
* wala! damn it!

46.favorite letter/s of the alphabet?
* T

47.are you absolutely obvious to your crush?
* studies muna. chuvaness! haha!

Listening to: sa uulitin
Feeling: bummed out

ang buko...
POSTED AT 10:31 AM

badasspaul

    loko tlga si michelle. may topak. iLOVEfruits daw. especially buko! hahaha. loko!!! brain food yun! hahaha.  soooooo. haha.

    i just remembered when i first met mitch. haha. nag reminisce? sooo that was way back second year. uhm, summer yun. haha. we went to boracay, tapos yun. i met mitch. hahaha. till then we didnt forget each other. un.. now she's studying in csb. haha. anywayyyy...

   first game later... how i wish i'd play a good game. havent played since last last saturday. goodluck... ill edit this post later. i hafta go to school. boo yah.
 

sweet victory
POSTED AT 02:35 PM

badasspaul

    first game of our very young LSAL season. good job by my team. yes. we came out victorious. scored 7 pts. tsk... ang baba. pero its ok. atleast we won. marbie came out when we needed someone to step up. great. haha. yes... goodluck next game.

    i was kinda tired last night, and i wasnt able to blog. so here i am now. just arrived here in the condo. chaco and the volleyball team won. 1-1 na sila. haaaaaaaaay. im still tired, and i need to study!! dang. hehe... imma be back in school later, i need to review for math and orgmgnt. 

    i still do not find the point in studying. i study only to fail,,, and fail,,, and fail again. what a stupid life.  i have to study moooooooooooooooooooore! so that i'd fail even mooooooooooooooooooore!

   "not everybody gets what they want, but someone will try to give you everything that you want."

 

Listening to: sa uulitin
Feeling: tired parin

just enough time to chillax
POSTED AT 10:05 AM

badasspaul

so... the past few days havent been the more productive ones. but they would count as the ones with most fun... hehe.

dating back last thursday. the day started out with p.e class, we practiced how to dance swing. after that, we studied for our math test. then after that, went home to take a bath then went back to school for english class. tried to study for management but i couldnt. so... what happened was, i just guessed in the orgmgnt departmental test. when i was about to pass my answer sheet, i saw reena's answer sheet on the desk, i was comparing our answers and i lost all hope. all of our answers were different. that only meant one thing. reena being the best in the class would probably get the correct answers. so... i therefore conclude that i will fail the damn test.

after classes. trixia and i couldnt do anything. we decided to crash camilles place and watch some movies. we got pizza and chicken and watched the perfect catch or fever pitch or whatever... then after that we watched white chicks...and excuze me.... hahahaha. we enjoyed the movie. hehe.went home pretty late. hehe.

friday. didnt attend algtrig class. i woke up at  around 8.30... algtrig ends at 8. hahahaha.so that was stupid.after realizing that i was late. i fell a sleep again. hahaha. woke up at around 9.30, asked trixia what i was supposed to do for orgmgnt. then after that, i went to introso class for another boring class session. argh. after that, we went to eat sa siomaian. tapos, errol went back with me here sa condo kasi he was going to enroll daw. so while he was using my computer, i dozed off. and the bitch didnt wake me up. i woke up at around 2.40 and i heard him say, "paul, tara na!" hahahaha. natawa na lang ako. we're already late for englone class. damn you errol. haha. anyway... its ok. nothing to be mad about. haha. after classes, we wanted to watch harry potter. but we were caught between watchin HP and doing our orgmgnt report which was due on tuesday. so... while walking along taft, we decided to just do the report and watch the movie some other time.  so we went to starbuck to do the report. we started it there but we decided to finish it in the condo. we finished it... well, almost. just a few more details... anyway... that ended our day. hehe.

now its saturday, waiting for dad to pick me up. yoooohoooo. im hungry. hahaha. chillax. this is going to be a long day. 

huling taong kinausap mo?:
>>mother dearest.

> -ano kulay ng damit mo ngayon?:
>>white.

> -kamusta ka naman?:
>>ok naman. ikaw?

> -anong ginawa mo ngayong araw na to?:
>>gumising.

> -ano nasa paligid mo?:
>>makalat na kwarto

> -may alaga ba kayong pusa?:
>>condo to. no pets allowed.

> -malamok ba dyan?:
>>hindi naman. hindi ata umaabot ng 15th floor ang mga pesteng lamok eh.

> -marunong kang kumanta?:
>>nag mamarunong.

> -kelan ka huling natawa ng malakas?:
>>a few hours ago.

> -huling tinext mo?:
>>trixia

> -describe yourself in ONE word?:
>>uhm... masiyahin?

> -huling ginawa mo bago matulog?:
>>nagtext

> -nakapunta ka na ba sa cebu?:
>>di pa eh.ayaw ako isama ni ken.

> -huling inutos sayo ng magulang mo?:
>>ayusin ko daw buhay ko.

> -magulo ba dyan sa lugar nyo?:
>>pagsamasamahin mo ang tatlong maristian na lasalyano na ngayon, tapos malalakas mang asar. you do the math.

> -nakapunta ka na ba sa malabon zoo?:
>>oo dati nung bata pa ako. mabaho dun eh.

> -huli mong kinain?:
>>kakain plang.

> -huli mong ininom?:
>>vanilla frap

> -huli mong kinanta?:
>>loving youuuuu hahahaha


> -naka-experience ka na ba ng lindol?:
>>oo.

> -huling tumawag sayo sa phone/cp?:
>>mother dearest

> -huling nagbigay sayo ng testi?:
>>mitch.

> -huling binigyan mo ng testi?:
>>mitch.

> -anong oras ka natutulog?:
>>between 12-3am

> -nagka-sore eyes ka na ba?:
>>mejo.

> -anung sinusuot mo pag natutulog?
>>shorts at tshirt

> -anong ginawa mo kaninang 8am?:
>>tulog pa ako nun.

> -my sarili ka bang payong?:
>>nasira ko na lahat.

> -kelan ka huling nagpagupit?:
>>2 weeks ago.

> -nakagat ka na ba ng aso?:
>>oo. pero pinalo ko din siya ng malaking stick. so namatay siya. puppy plang eh. haha.

> -nasan ka kaninang 3pm?:
>>alas diyes y medya pa lang.

> -kelan ka huling nakakita ng rainbow?:
>>matagal tagal na.

> -madalas ka bang magchat?:
>>oo. hi tech kasi kaming mga ICTM students

> -nakitulog ka na ba sa bahay ng
> classmate mo?
>>yep.

> -fave radio station mo?:
>>uhm, nu107.5

> -kelan ka huling na-badtrip?:
>>mejo mga matagal na.

> -nakapunta ka na ba sa megamall?:
>>ay. siguro.

> -nakasakay ka na ba ng pampasaherong
> bus?:
>>oo naman.

> -ano huli mong napanaginipan?
>>pagod ako masyado para managinip.

> -san ka ngpnta nung new year?:
>>diba mag nnewyear pa lang?

> -may kaaway ka ba ngayon?:
>>wala. make love not war.

> -san mo gustong pumunta sa ngayon?:
>>saaaa... basketball court.

> -masungit ba kapitbahay nyo?:
>>sa marikina they're all friendly,dito din sa taft. haha.

> -anong kulay ng bag mo?:
>>black, yellow and purple,  brown,  blue(mdami akong bag)

Feeling: weird

hahahah
POSTED AT 07:32 AM

badasspaul

this is so much fun.
Listening to: sorry
Feeling: cant tell, happy na sad.

chillaxing
POSTED AT 09:06 PM

badasspaul

    not worried for tomorrow's orgmgnt defense. well im a little bit worried, but not for my self. for my groupmates. dalawang tamad mag basa, isang kinakabahan... what can i do? i dunno. its up to them. i just hope i remember what i should say tomorrow. anyway goodluck.

      aral... aral... and more aral... how i wish yan ang laman ng utak ko. pero hindi eh. madami masyadong distraction sa punyetang mundo na toh.

   pinagpipilitan ang sarili sa hindi pwede. gruvvi. so anchor sa databas. wala talaga akong alam. i better start learning java. shit.
      

    tama na. im bloody. cant you see? help me. this is driving me crazy. 

    "iba ka." oo... sana. gusto ko maging iba. gusto ko mag bago. gusto ko marating ang aking 'ideal-self'. haha. tanginang socio yan. stupid. haaaay.

    harry potpot. kelan ba kita mapapanood? mukhang panaginip na lang ang pagnuod ko ng harry potter goblet of fire. haaaaaaay. lahat na ng pagkakataon nabitin. greatness. haaaaaaaaay.

 chillax na nga...

Listening to: sunshine

countless blessings
POSTED AT 11:19 PM

badasspaul

             i better start counting my blessings. its going to be hell from tomorrow till the end of the term. so... here's my busy sched.

tomorrow. wednesday. nov 23. morning-lab (8-10), enrollment

                                                  socio test, java seminar, soccer game ng blockmates ako coach eh. haha. basketball game(6pm) pasi-catchan 6-10pm

 
thursday. nov 24----------p.e. finals, p.e. practical test(swing),passing of english essay

friday.nov 25-----mostly break time for the week but! dance practice, study for databas and algtrig, digital week culminating night.

weekend. nov 26 & 27-------study for algtrig and databas

monday. nov 28--------study more for databas and algtrig, dance practice.

tuesday.nov 29(this is hell!)----morning, ALGTRIG TEST, DATABAS FINALS. oh so bloody.

wednesday. nov 30(hell again)-----project demo, databas. bball game.

 

damn... i hope you can feel the pressure. my god. i cant go on anymore. but still, i strive to go on. and continue my journey through the unknown.

to my mom and dad. i hope you wont get mad at me, im probably going to fail management and databas. im so sorry guys. damn it. just born stupid.

AND HELL! I HATE MATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 napag initan pa ng teacher kanina sa orgmgnt. damn it. i hate it. aargh! nako. wala na atang pag asa. sana pumasa ng math. at databas. at orgmgnt. at socio. damn. aaaaaaaaargh!

this is hell. this is hell. pero... kailangan magsikap para tayo'y umangat.

fall seven times... STAND UP EIGHT.
 

Listening to: the crush
Feeling: stressed

you're my angel, in my own heaven
POSTED AT 11:40 PM

badasspaul

Listening to: pink white blue
Feeling: cant tell.

boring saturday afternoon
POSTED AT 01:56 PM

badasspaul

     so after last night's digital week culminating activity and the rhumba dance practice. here i am, sitting in front of my damn computer.

i just cant believe life can suck this much. ok, so lets start of with last wednesday. we lost badly to the edge 05 team. which sucked!! i hate it. i wasnt even able to help the team. 4pts? jeeez. i suck at everything.

soooooooo... i want to go home. but i cant yet. i have to wait for my "group mates" so that we can "meet up" to "discuss" shit. all are in quotation because i want to put emphasis on these simple yet very annoying words.

hmmm. i just realized daTabas is a really difficult subject. hmmmm. and so is math! and organization! and sociology. ugh! they all suck. P.E even sucks more because i have to dance!!! i hate it!!!

so...im really hungry. but i dont want to eat out alone. asked some people if they wants to eat out. got a no for an answer.  too bad.

so. while people are worrying about their database projects. i sit here not doing anything. while people read about VB(visual bullshit) i sit here typing. oooh. this is the life. and in no time. i'd be an OSY. oh yes. im not looking forward to becoming one. 

i dont want to get kicked out of lasalle. but the way things are going? damn. haaaaaaaaaay. lasalle. i hate lasalle. too much of everything.

so...i guess this is it. i keep on listening to this song for a reason i have yet to find out. damn. why? i have no friggin' idea. 

i want to watch HP, and the exorcism of emily rose. but i guess im waiting for nothing. no one to accompany me... im such a loner? huh. 

i miss monique. not just the simple miss ya type. this is different. argh. i hate it. but i think i just have to move on. she's gone. and there's nothing i can do.  i feel so helpless...

i want to play basketball. ALONE.

damn.

chillax fools. 

Listening to: jeepney
Feeling: uncomfortable

the girl next door
POSTED AT 03:47 AM

badasspaul

just finished watching the girl next door. it had a great story line. and a lot of lessons were learned. well, i suppose?

ok. it had these "scenes", and you should get what i mean by quoting that word. but, hell, who would care about the scenes.

so.. imagine how one girl can change a guy's life in a blink of an eye.

you know... "sometimes, you have to risk everything for the person you love."

 

you better watch it. but, it is R18 i think. just dont be surprised.

 

Watching: the girl next door
Feeling: pleased

dot dot dot
POSTED AT 07:07 PM

badasspaul

where am i headed to?
POSTED AT 01:13 AM

badasspaul

    off to wonder land you son of a tooooot. its been a long time since you've done something good. your headed no where fool..(everybody, im talking to my self. ok.)

    so... i gave up to the wrath of that stupid databas test. what a foolish test. still... me. old paul. the guy who never learns his lessons. the "one time, big time" guy. algtrig... its coming. i want to pass. please. i dont want to fail a second time.

    this life is stupid. i stay up late, and i know i have a game tomorrow night. i have to wake up early and everything... my god. i hope i can do something tomorrow.

    ok... ok... ok... im missing those long goodbyes and goodnights. imagine this, i feel sleepy, i greet her goodnight, sweetdreams what ever what ever... la la la... and i get reply's like its never going to end. this would go on for 5-10 damn minutes. i miss it.. badly.  i dont have that now. its just goodnight. no more la la la la la.....

    would you consider calling a single candy from a nips pack a NIP? answer me. please...

   and why on earth is mentos called mentos. what if i buy just the single ones? shouldnt they be called MENTO.?
 

     

injured. atlast?
POSTED AT 12:30 AM

badasspaul

    damn it... luto na ung game... na injure pa. f*cker!haaaaaaaaaaaay. so.. i missed that feeling, the feeling that when you fall, you'll feel your bones crunch together and the pain.. that agonizingly painful feeling. my god. then the after effects of getting a sprain...  the problem on walking. i love it... the unbearable pain of walking a sprained foot, but still i walk it... and i have a new one... im going to dance rhumba with a sprained foot. tomorrow. and play again, on saturday... hahaha. nice? haaaaaaaaaaaaay.

    so. what am i going to do... love life? love this god damned forsaken life? thats going to be hard to do... i need someone to show me how exactly to love life and every challenge it has to bring... this is going to be a hard task... tssssssssssssssssss. badtrip!

    sakit ng paa ko. sobraaaaaaaa! tulooooooong.

    sabi mo you care... then show me...

    
    I HAVE *TWO and a HALF* days to get my foot in playing condition.
 

FACT 1:
- Name: Paul  
- Birth date: 10-17-88
- What are you doing now: figuring out how to dance later

FACT 2: Your?
- Most overused phrase(s): "hunyango!" "my GAD"
- Thoughts first waking up: "another fucked up day coming up."
- Usual bedtime: the fuck? indefinite.
-Person/thing who wakes u up?: sometimes, trixia. most of the time, MONSTER ALEX.
- Most missed memories: highschool. monique

FACT 3: Preferences..?
- Pepsi or Coke: i dont do softdrinks
- McDonald's or Burger King: mcdo...

FACT 4: Do you?
- Smoke: nah.
- Have a crush: oh yeah! DDG!
- want to get married?: i guess..
- Get motion sickness: no.
- Think you're a health freak: no. i play with a broken ankle. and even dance with it.
- Get along with your parents: kinda...
- Like thunderstorms: yeah. walang pasok!!!

FACT 5: In the past month, you?
- Drank alcohol: yeah. wait... no. its december already. no alcohol intake for november.
- Gone on a date: what date?
- Gone to the mall: yeah.
- Eaten sushi: oh yeah.
- Been on stage: i guess
- Gone skating: no.

FACT 6:
- Age you hope to be married: 13-30
- Number of Children: 2
- Names: girl: Paula Nicole boy: idontreallycarewhathisnameis
- Describe your Dream Wedding: uhm. we'll be jumping off an airplane along with the priest and do the matrimonial rights in the air.
- What do you want to be when you grow
up: basketball player? IT manager?

FACT 8: In a girl/boy you would want?:
- Best hair color: brownish.=) ahahaha!
- Short or long hair: long straight and silky.. ang dulas. ang ganda!!

FACT 9: List the number of:
- People u trust with your life: counting from negative
- cd u own: a lot
- Piercings:none.
- Tattoos: none.

FACT 10: What..?
-are you listening to now?: pink white blue
-What time is it now?: 2.38am
-What is ur fav subject?: fuck that. DATABAS ALGTRIG and ORGMGNT

Feeling: pain!!!