badasspaul

    looooooong day... well... it started with a math test that eventually ruined my whole day. which is not great i think. woke up at around 5am... i already had the feeling that my day wouldnt be that nice... and it wasnt... when i got to school, i saw marge and ric, and the tapat boys... i asked marge to come with me to the nook to buy a quiz booklet... which by the way will be of no use to me. but thats getting ahead of the story. ok... so let me continue.

    math time. so i got the questionnaire and everything... i started to answer. and i started to feel my head aching badly... math was slowly creeping into me and ruining my very existence... i was the first one to pass the paper... great huh? well, thats because i guessed about 60% of the test... and the other 40%? nothing but wrong answers. great!

     so... i was supposed to go to the sports complex with ric to watch the p.e people... but i was too sleepy, and devastated that i didnt go with him. when i got here, i went straight to my bed and fell asleep... this continued till around 2:20, 10 minutes before my class... so, when i woke up... i decided to check my mail, then take a bath... so in other words, i was 30-45minutes late... bad thing is, i have to report on something this wednesday... then there'd be a test in netcomm this friday... oh, and did i mention i have to pass something for english tomorrow? yeah... great huh?

   so... no brainer. this day sucked. flat out sucked... and thats it. im in no mood to do anything or talk to anyone. i just felt like releasing some stress through this... ok... about 2% of stress has left my body... great. 98% to  go.

 

badasspaul

    oh yes. i am starting to hate my self badly. sooooo... wait, kwento muna about last night... pumunta si v-man at si jordan dito sa condo... binisita kami. huwaw. bisitors. ayun, e di tuwang tuwa naman ang aking mga matitikas na kabarkada dahil nakita nila kaming muli, pero si alex lang naman talaga ang pinunta nila... oo alam ko yun. ahahaha. so ako, mejo tahimik lang, patawa tawa lang, pangiti ngiti... problemado eh. mas sakit sa puso. anyway... yun, nagyaya sila uminom. ako, game ako. ganun naman kapag madaming problema eh. so umakyat kami sa roofdeck at nag sindi sila ng mga alaga nilang kulisap... yosi sa mga hindi nakakaalam kung ano yun. tapos inom... di ko alam, naka eight or nine na shot ako nung iniinom namin. tapos the whole time inaasar lang si alex. pero pagtapos... bakit parang wala akong tama... yun ang feeling ko, pero sa tingin ko meron na din... hindi lang ako nahilo or whatever.. so yun,umuwi sila ng mga 1.30, matapos nilang sabunutan at gulpihin si alex. dinaganan nila at wrinestling si alex. may mga pictures at video pa yan. pero wala parin ako sa mood... bakit ganun.?

     problems grew a lot bigger nung matutulog na ako. hindi na kami nagkakaintindihan. nagaaway na at nagkakagulo... which is all because of me, ofcourse... so yun nga... natulog na ang mga tao, kuminang na ang mga bituin. pero ako, nakatalukbong ng kumot hanggang mga alas kwatro ng umaga. nagiisip... seryoso. oo, seryoso. nakita ko pa nung nagtext ka ng mga 3am.. i just didnt have the guts to reply... anyway... yun nga... nakatulog din. ang aga ko nagising. 8.30, tingin ako agad sa cellphone ko. dapat gising na siya nun, at ang alam ko dapat magtetext na siya nun. pero hindi. dun ako nagkamali... hindi din pala. so nakatulog ako ulit. 9.30 ako nagising, tingin ulit agad sa fone, wala parin. naisip ko, alam ko na mangyayari sa araw na to... hindi maganda. alam ko na... sumuko na nga siguro siya.

    malungkot akong pumunta sa lasalle para magbasketball. pagdating ko, palit agad, walang tingin tingin sa nagpp.e., tapos paglabas, pilit hindi tumitingin... pero napasulyap parin. nakita ko siya, gusto kong matunaw sa kinatatayuan ko. pero siya naman ang may ayaw, so bakit ko pipilitin? nagbasketball na lang ako para makalimot. pero, wala... hindi ako normal mag laro... nakita ko... nang gigigil ako at galit sa lahat ng pwede kong kagalitan. ngumingiti ako para hindi obvious, pero sa loob loob ko... umaayaw na ako. nakikita ko siya, ang ganda... pero mukhang hanggang tingin na lang ako... hanggang tingin na lang. siguro.

       pati si errol pala napansin  yun. pero hindi ko na lang kinwento. hindi ako nagsalita. nagpalit na ako at dali daling umuwi sa dormitoryo para mag shower. malungkot parin ako... hindi ko alam kung ano yung tumatakbo sa utak ko. pilit kong pinapasaya sarili ko pero walang nangyayari. kawawa.

   eto ako ngayon. nakaupo. nagiisip parin. itetext ba kita? o aantayin kong magunaw ang mundo? ewan ko. bahala na ang diyos. isa lang masasabi ko ngayong mga panahong ito. sorry.

    naisip ko, eto nanaman, ilang araw bago ang espesyal na araw. hah. pagsubok lang siguro. pero hindi din. ewan ko. malabo. dapat na punasan. ewan ko. tama na. nasisira na utak ko. sorry na.

badasspaul

just finished taking a shower... hmmmm.... its so hot outside. grabe. summer na talaga... well, for other people it is... but for us lasallians... ASA! hehehe. one month to go pa. tsk tsk tsk.

ok, so enrollment next week... its already time for majors next term, meaning, we've been ask to pick out a certain specialization to pursue... hmmm... so, i took interactive technologies as a specialization... hope i do learn something, so that i could land a pretty good job sometime in the near future. anyways.....

hmmmm... so boring... grabe na ito. i want have my vacation already... para puro basketball lang... basketball sa umaga, parang almusal. basketball sa tanghali, parang lunch. basketball sa hapon, parang siesta. at siyempre, basketball sa gabi, parang dinner. hehehehe...

pero siyempre, may mga responsibilidad din na dapat gampanan... hindi ko yun nakalimutan. hehehe.

 UMUULAN BA??????????? ang init init kanina sa labas eh!!!!!!!!

anyway... ayan... hanggang dito na lang muna ang aking magiting na post. yebah.

na hack nga pala tabulas, so yun, mejo hindi agad nakapag blog. stufeed! hehehe. 

badasspaul

very TAFT.

 ok... so schools around metro manila are about to enter vacation. we lasallians, dont have one. great. well, one month isnt enough. we go through so much trouble, then we get a month as a reward? great. haha.

    hennnnnnyway..... ayun. haaaaaaay... tani and i are kinda pissed of at this certain person. kilala mo na yun tani... yung taong pag nanjan yung crush eh wala nang pakielam sa mga kasama, kahit gutom na yung mga kasama at gusto na umalis. nagmamagaling ka masyado bruha ka. hindi ka naman nila papatulan, tandaan mo. hahahaha. anyway... enough about that certain person na kinaiinisan. ok lang yan tani, we'll get to hangout again some other time......with better people i hope. hehehe. text mo lang kami ni trixia. hahanap tayo ng masarap kasama na tao. hehe.

    so yun... ano ba? galing nanaman ako sa magiting na computer shop nila trixia. nandun si muhmuh niya kanina, cool pala talaga. hahaha. so i met cheska(?) today... at nadiscover ko na madaldal nga ang mom ni trixia. hahaha. at ang kulet niya. may pinagmanahan ka nga may dear. hahahaha. what a fun person to be around with... so yunn.... tapos, kat, na friend ni aisne, eh nandun nanaman. finals na daw nila? manginggit ba naman? HINDI TAMA YUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok lang, nahihirapam naman siya. hahaha.

    come on now for ourselves, now... indeed it is true. i am so sleepy na. hehehe.

    hmmm... trixia seems to have been disappointed at first sa dsl niya, pero, kung hindi dahil sakin, hindi niya madidiscover ang tunay na galing ng dsl. hehehe. berigud. ako din, makiki-dl ah? papaayos ko pati kay marvin the martian yung nba ko. hehehe. :D

   paalam now for my self. i have to sleep na for my self. bye bye na to your selves. hahahahaha!
 

badasspaul

    soooo... things are fine right now. hmmm... its 10 in the evening, friday night, and im really bored here in the condo. i would have gone home to marikina if i didnt have a class tomorrow.. and some games i think.

    life has been really mean. especially on me. to start my day off, alex woke me up at around 7:30am, but then, i realized that miss penn was going to give back the quiz, and oooohhhh... did i know the results already? ofcourse i did... so i didnt go to class... sooooo lazy. then, the freaking enrollment sucked so much!!! i dont have relstwo and bizproc classes. what the fuck?! damn it. anyway... so thing have been really mean, but i tried to keep my cool... then when i got to school, i got my test paper from ric. and i wasnt surprised... i saw a failing grade, and i just decided to laugh the pain and embarassment away... still trying to keep my cool. netcomm was fine. but then the best part of the day came. im not telling the story... it was flat out dope! i loved it so much, i had to go back to the condo to take a shower because of that doped out moment. yes... i loved it so much. 

    thanks to two very special people. oh yeah. thankyou...

    quote of the day: "muling ibalik ang tamis ng pagibig. muling pagbigyan ang pusong nagmamahal." (this made me smile for a change. hahaha.)

   simpleng hirit of the day: "(name) miss na kita ah." hahahahahahahaha. jologs mo boy! hahahaha!

   anyway... maybe i'll update this later. havent eaten dinner yet. i think i dont have a plan to do so. yebah!

   "you say you love me, now why aint you here?"
 

badasspaul

    hmmmm... boring sunday afternoon again, as usual... what a day... cant even go play outside, too hot to play... hehehe. so, im here, bummed in my room... nothing to do but to download and download and download more pimp my ride episodes... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.... hehehe.

    anyway... things doesnt seem right. but i dont know? am i following marc's footsteps towards failure? hahaha. i hope not. i dont want to fail 15 units in a term. and definitely not go to csb like benman. no way... if im transferring, i'd better be somewhere a lot closer to home. ust maybe? ateneo, nah... if im failing in lasalle, what kind of future would i be looking at in ateneo? hahahah. and definitely not U.P. hahahaha. i dont have the skills to make it back to U.P.. something a fucking grad gift took away from me. hahahaha. upset? no.  just trying to reminisce old times. hehehe.

    hmmmm... so, i just have to move on... what am i to do? play nba? watch tv? what??? cant think of anything to do... something's bothering me, but i couldnt pinpoint what it is exactly... i have to go do some thinking here... hmmm... 

    maybe i have to go and rest for now... take some time to think of things. hehehe. edit this post when i get back from thinking... yeah.... 

"hear me today, cause im a million miles away..." i will be if i dont start acting properly...

badasspaul

   with you life is worth living. every moment speaks for itself. you've made me realize who i am. you pull me out of all the troubles i was getting my self into. you give me a dream, to spend forever with you. you show me ways on  how to live and enjoy life. you give me hope. inspiration. happiness. and the loving presence that i have been longing for. life is happy. life is worth living. life is definitely worth loving.

   i wonder who i would be without you. what life would be like without you. maybe i'd be some dumb guy with a fucked up life, getting into trouble every now and then. this is how i see life without you...

   so now, whats happening to life? is it slowly deteriorating into what i think it would be without you? i hope not. i hope this is just one big dream, and im just waiting for someone to pinch me, to help me wake up from this nightmare. and get my life back on track... who am i waiting for? its nobody else, but YOU.
 

badasspaul

       sooooooooo... im home. finally. after another loooooooong week. 3 more weeks to go and im off to vacation. what am i gonna do?

-hopefully, get back in shape and get back all the basketball i've lost due to school and stuff.

-i want to go swimming!!! badly. i want sand, sun and water. my gad!!

-no school for 2 months. which is virtually impossible. fuck that.

-triiiiiiiiixxxxxxxxxxxiiiiiiiiaaaaaaa. i want trixia. :D

       basketball... i think im going to play tomorrow? or maybe not. better study for anmath, even though i know that im failing, and this time around im sure... i think i'd still give it a shot... "basta you know you did your part ok na." recognize that line trixia ann? hehehe.

        effort... yung linalandingan ng mga efflane. tsangna!!! i want basketball... and i want the beach soooooo much. pwede ba magbasketball sa beach? para sabay? argh!!! frustrated na akooooooo! tagal pa ng vacation! tagal pa sobra! vacation mode na ang utak ko! hindi na gumagana. sheeeesh!

      so ayan. sobrang tuyot na ako. babayoo muna.

"Our greates glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."

0.0 = aral paaaaaaaaaa!!!!

it's the way that she makes you feel.
it's the way that she kisses you.
it's the way that she makes you fall in looooooove.

badasspaul

holy alphabet 

A lthough things are not perfect
B ecause of trial or pain
C ontinue in thanksgiving
D o not begin to blame
E ven when the times are hard
F ierce winds are bound to blow
G od is forever able
H  old on to what you know
I  magine life without His love
J   oy would cease to be
K eep thanking Him for all the things
L ove imparts to thee
M ove out of "Camp Complaining"
N o weapon that is known
O n earth can yield the power
P raise can do alone
Quit looking at the future
R edeem the time at hand
S tart every day with worship
T o "thank" is a command
U ntil we see Him coming
V ictorious in the sky
W e'll run the race with gratitude
X alting God most high
Y es, there'll be good times and yes some will be bad, but...
Z ion waits in glory...where none are ever sad!

 

badasspaul

1. When you looked at yourself in the
mirror today,what was the first thing you thought?
--oh shit! is that me?

2. How much cash do you have on you?
-- uh... 1000. baon for the week.

3. What's a word that rhymes
with "DOOR?"
-- store?

4. Favorite planet?
--uhh.... mars? dun may alien eh.

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed
call list
on your mobile?
--kakabura ko lang eh.

6. What was 4th text message?
--trixia... ingat daw ako.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
--press to play shit ng accel

8. Do you "label" yourself as anything?
--teka... dami ata eh. sige "cute" na lang. para hindi abuso.

9. Name the brand of shoes you're
currently wearing?
--Nike

10. Bright or Dark room?
--my gad naman!!! umaga eh!

11. What do you think about the person
who took this survey before you?
--tado yun si nash eh.

13. What were you doing at midnight last
night?
-- nakahiga, nagpapalamig sa kwarto.

14. What was the last text message you
received on your mobile?
--trixia... papunta na daw siya school.

15. Where is your mailbox?
-- nasa internet. mail.yahoo.com

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
seriously?
-- tuyot.

17 where are you?
-- room 1502 madison square condominuim taft avenue malate manila philippines. kulang pa ba?

19. How many drugs have you done in
the last
three days?
-- mabait ako eh.

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
-- hmmm... cguro nung 1 yr old plang ako. para baby pa talaga.

22. Your worst enemy?
-- uh... si mareng KAT....

    KATamaran.


23. Current thing on your desktop?
-- computer ba ito o literal na desktop? sige, kung computer, si mang jordan. kung desk tlga, laptop.

24. What was the last thing you said to
someone,dat you mean?
-- im so cute.

25. If you had to choose between a
million bucks
or to be able to fly what would it be?
-- fly na lang... pwede kumita ng pera. sabihin nating, pumasada ako. sasakay sakin mga tao, 100 ang bayad... pwede na. wala pang traffic.

26. Do you like someone?
--oh yeah.

27. The last song you listened to?
--i dare you to move - switchfoot.

28. If the last person you spoke to was
getting shot
at, would you jump in front of the bullet.
--uh... si ric huli kong kinausap... so wag na lang... para mabawasan ng masama sa mundo. baka ako pa bumaril sa kanya.

29.If you could punch 1 person in your
life right
now, who would it be?
--si pareng manny pacquiao. hirap kasi ispell ng last name niya. wala na lang bawian.

30. What is the closest object to your left
foot?
- uh... sapatos ko?

31.who's the last person you touched?
-- si jiggy... pinalo ko.

obvious ba na walang magawa? ok lang yan. kakatamad magaral eh. hehehe. for a change, sagot munang survey diba. hehehe. bagsak nga pala ang anmath test. great. hahahaha. ayan... gagawa na ako nung sa english... goodbye. :D 

badasspaul

so... almost getting the hang of flash... though i have a lot more to learn from my master, jiggy... im pretty much getting the hang of it... almost done with the hutecin proj? i dunno... maybe... well, im happy that i got that 15 minute online tutorial from jiggy, or i'd still be staring out my window with nothing to do... sooooo... its what they call hell week already... not just for me, but for everybody. jeeez. we have a lot, and i say it again, A LOT of stuff to do. tons and tons of school work are up for grabs again... this is great.

flash... maybe ill upload it sometime... man, am i bored or what??? i have to pass sometime. im dizzy with all the flash thing i've been doing for what? 7 hours now? yeah...i think i started at around 6... its 1am god damn it. hahahaha.

now... no need to get all worked up. i have a lot of time tomorrow... which brings me to the english research paper defense... we'd be wearing formal tomorrow. thats great. good thing i had my haircut already. 

whatelse... whatelse... whatelse.... cant wait for vacation. basketball na buong araw!!!!! yahoooo!! but that doesnt happen in two weeks time. fuck. that got rid of all the energy in my body. hahahaha.

i like the song i dare you to move by switchfoot... well, i think? i've been listening to it the whole day... and stars too...

ok.. survey time. for the second time today...

1.What is it about you that people don't really
notice?
-i tend to give up easily, but i dont really give up. its just like an excuse for me to do even better.

2. What do people commonly mistake you for?
-masamang bata...

3. Are you insecure?
-i dont think so...

4. Do you think you're attractive?
-ask them. not me... hahaha.

5. Do you find it easy to trust people?
-sumkindova.

6. Do you have a really big secret?
-im a faggot!!! god damn it! hahaha. joke.

7. If yes, how many people have you told about it?
-isa?

8. How are you when you get mad?
-tahimik. hindi namamansin. badtrip sa lahat. diba???

9. What do you do when you're bored?
-uh. basketball, internet, photoshop... basketball ulit?

10. Do you enjoy doing nothing?
-no.. but i love sleeping. thats like the synonym of doing nothing.

11. Are you comfortable in being alone?
-no. never had been.

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the stars
is fun?
-oh yeah...

13. Do you like the rain?
-yep. kasi dati, pag umuulan, walang pasok. ngayon di na... kapag gumuguho na mundo, may pasok parin.

14. What can you say about poetry?
-i like it.

15. Are you a phone person?
-nope. text lang... tska ym.

16. Do you smoke weed?
-no. i aint snoop dogg.

17. What song best describes how you feel?
-hmmm... bluer than blue? hahahaha! oldschool...

18. What impossible thing do you want to do right
now?
-imposible... hmmm... jump off the building and fly... fly away!!!!!

19. What is missing in your life right this moment?
-what is missing in my life... trixia?

20. aRe you happy with the way things are going
in your lovelife?
-yeah...

21. Are you sure?
-nyeta. kulit ah!

22. Where were you today?
-school

23. What did you do today?
-nagaral. student mode ako ngayon. i brought my bible and notes and i studied for the quiz in rels class.

24. Who were you with today?
-uh... the cowboys of s16. friends...

25. What are you planning to do now?
-mag pahinga. ayt?

 isa pa...|---------------------------------------------------------------------|

boredom strikes twice!!!

01 what is your 2nd name?
~ nicholas.

02 what is your hair color ?
~ black.

03 where do you study ?
~ de la salle university-manila

04 how old are you?
~ 17

05 where could you be seen?
~ condo. school. computer shop nila trix.

06 are you angry at anyone?
~ nope.

07 who was the last one who called you?
~ daddy?

08 who is the last one who messaged you?
~ trixia

09 who was the last one who added you here?
~ where?

10 who was the last person who hurt you
verbally?
~ hmmm... cant remember.

11 how many people are in your list?
~ what list? im not santa...

12 do you talk with people you don't know?
~ yeah. when the need arises.

13 do you love shopping?
~ OH YEAH!!!!

14 what is your favourite color ?
~ blue

15 do you miss someone?
~ hell yeah.

16 when was the last time you drank any
alcoholic drink?
~ hmmm... lemme see... last month?

17 what was that alcoholic drink?
~ kaibigang empoy and ang aking magiting na kabayong si red.

18 how many messages do you have in your
inbox in MYSPACE/FRIENDSTER?
~ 3?

19 where was the last time you drank coffee?
~ big m. last week.

20 where was the last place you went before
answering this?
~ University Mall, bumili ng macromedia installer.

21 do people message you to add them up?
~ sa friendster ba ito? kung ganon... yes they do. sorry sila tamad ako.

22 what song are you listening to?
~ i dare you to move.

23 what do you feel when people compliment
you?
~ "sinungaling ka, gago." or "astig ah. joke ba yan?"

24 do you think kids like you?
~ kids love me.

25 are you having fun today?
~ NO!

26 do you have any projects to submit?
~ i have a truck load of projects to submit.

27 have you done it?
~ DING!!! one for the count.... well, it aint finished yet.

28 what is it about anyway?
~ new gadgets? human-computer interaction? research paper? jesus christ? networks? whatelse... hmmmm... para mukhang madaming ginagawa... hehehe.

29 have you ever admired someone ever since and
you're still admiring that person?
~ hmmmm...

30 why?
~ why not?

gnyt na nga. babayoooooo!

badasspaul

 its four minutes before two in the morning... and im really feeling sleepy right now. b-bu-bu-bu-buuuuut!!!! im trying to figure out stuff about macromedia flash...... if i dont do this, my grades will disappear... in a flash.

 what to do... im tired. tuyot na... ayoko na...

  had the english defense nga pala kanina... walang kwenta. tuyot eh...

BAKASYOWN... bakit kay tagal mong dumaan.

sisikat na ang abril, ngunit di ka parin sumasapit.

bakit ganito ang tadhan? o kay sama...

bakasyowng pinaka aantay, di parin natitikman.

sa pagsapit ng pinakaaantay na araw...

tila bula rin namang mawawala...

o bakasyon... ikaw lang aking minimithi.

o bakasyon.. AKO AY TUYOT NA.
 

badasspaul

 shiiit... its 5:15 in the morning.. i slept at around 3? 3.30? and dang, what time is it... stupid... soooo stupid. anyway... i have stuff in my mind...

here goes nothing.

yesterday, was cheska's (trixia's friend) birthday celebration. so happy birthday to you... i hope you guys had fun. especially trixia.... i hope they had fun. and i hope they liked the flash thingy... which by the way was a lot better than my hutecin project. stupid... spent more time on that than my project. hahahaha.

anyway... im kinda pissed. i didnt get to finish the hutecin demo. because of my stupid flash presentation. then, i still have to go to the relsone finals because, obviously, my grades arent that high to get expemted from the test... and, i think im going to fail netcomm too... great....

whatelse... whatelse... whatelse... feeling stupid-er (is there even a term) by the minute. well its vacation. what can i do...

wait... to this "someone", i read your webmate thing. i wonder who that someone is. hahahaha. it could be anybody in the world...... hahahaha. who cares anyway? no one would know who that is. haha.

hmmmm... stupid meeeeeeeeee... i want vacation. now na.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. oh basketball, i miss you. i just want to keep on playing and playing and playing until i die playing that game... whew...

basketball still is, and forever will be my ultimate stress reliever.

oh yeah.

speaking of basketball. i think i have to go back to sleep. me and the guys are gonna be playing in 4 hours. thats like... hello... hahahaha.

anyway... can you guess the mystery "thing"? *a*** 

trivia yan. hindi ko din alam sagot. hahahaha.

anyhoooooooooooooo. life sucks. 

goodmorning shitheads. (im not pissed, am i?) hahaha.